Searching and searching and searching. I never rest. When I try to rest, my mind goes crazy with thinking. My mind goes crazy with realizing what my life really is. With how tenuous it is and how tenuous all of our lives really are. Anything could happen to anyone at any moment. And things do. And they will, when the time is right for these things to come into our lives. People are born, they do things, they say things, they hold certain things important. They live their lives with a sense of certainty that if they behave themselves, they will live long and well. But things happen. Chances are taken. Risks are on the horizon. Life is just a big crapshoot. I spend my days searching for the best pair of dice.